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My Quietude

How else could I convince you
Knowing you are still in this world
Stamped upon my very own feet
Soul nodding me affirmatively

You held me sweet
So ripe as a pod
Teaching me to walk
To run and climb trees

Most things to me are important you see
I have touched the small red hearts dangling
Our unfinished story properly and still precise
Spreading our glossy memories for years

What matters to me is the bleeding of your heart
How it beats when it misses
When it cries
When it joys

For a long time I thought the world knew me
Simple woman happy by the simplicity of her faith
Committing green knobs to deliciously open
For I am older than I use to be now

Beneath my young and in a hurried spirit
The timeless body forgives full in fragrance
Bodies who once broke hearts
Now patiently rise loving in it’s lung like voice

I love you in my usual position
Fetal like breathing in this quietude of mine
Beautiful like our life use to sound
A sound so identical I would not know how to distinguish it  from the two of us

Father

is it your masculine presence my thoughts yearn
gloomy knuckled rheumatic me
messy war beds kneeling this night
paraphernalia resurrections
blowing skies
protesting protesting
bottles milking
baby dreams
father accommodate
this madness
flatten my sides
making your sea appear
stuff my mouth with it’s noise
father
in
you
my
hope
still
loves
under
water
close
to
death
i
forget
and
start
again
where
stars
draw
me
instead