And I Cried

The day arrived dark
heavy with water
as if the sky had lowered
its whole blue body
into my chest

And I cried

I cried the way rain cries
without shame
without apology
falling because it must fall

There are feelings
that do not fit in the hands

There are sorrows
too alive
to be sealed away

So I let them come

The window blurred

The trees bowed

The world became water

And then, slowly
the sun returned

Not as a miracle
But like a hand
finding my face
after I had forgotten
I still had one

Light touched the wet leaves

It entered the room
It found me there
still breathing
still woman
still mine

So I wiped my tears away

Not because the ache was gone

Not because love had become simple

Not because my heart
had grown quiet

I wiped them away
because I belong to myself
before I belong
to any sorrow

Because I have carried storms
and still opened my doors

Because even after rain
the earth does not apologize
for shining

And neither will I

The clouds had their mouth
against my skin

Now the sun
comes back for me